Bored!

Well since nothing new to report with TCC, you all have probably seen I have been my updating the blog look! What do you think of the new look?!

Also, I guess I'm jumping on the bandwagon and reaching out to you guys to keep me occupied! So I am ready for some questions! Ask anything about myself or Ang... ANYTHING!

We have a Halloween costume party to go tonight that should be interesting. I'm going as Snow White and Ang is a pirate. I will try to post some pictures!

In less than a month we are going home to Kansas for a whole two weeks! I'm so excited to see my family and old friends. It will be nice to just relax, not work, and catch up with everyone.

News

Well we went in this morning for our ultrasound to see how my little follies were doing. And little follies they were...

I guess I almost expected this, which is why I'm completely ok with the decision we made. My lining was great @ 12mm, however only ONE follicle again measuring at 19mm.

We collectively made the decision to cancel this cycle and try for next month only because

1) The doner we really like only had 4 iui vials left ( we purchased them all) and they aren't sure when he would donate more. Therefore we have already used one and want to make our other three tries really count
2) I'm still not responding AT ALL to the clomid. We know it only takes one to get pregnant, but would like to give ourselves better odds taking in account our finical issues and limited sperm

SO.. next cycle we will go to combo drugs. 50mg of Clomid and injectables. I'm not sure yet which injectables we will be using yet, but feeling hopeful that my body will respond to them!

I'm feeling a little bummed but also very ok with what we have decided.

Cool as a cucumber

As the insemination and dreaded two week wait get closer, it has made me think more about this cycle.

As much as I felt like I wasn't stressing and over analyzing things this last cycle... I knew I was.

This cycle I'm taking a new approach and am feeling already good about it! I'm just not going to worry/think about things. I haven't let myself have caffeine or alcohol the past two cycles and have decided that hell, if I want a cup of coffee or a few beers after work, I am going to have them!

I think by depriving myself of certain things during my wait, did in a round about way make me constantly think about the TTC process!

So cool as a cucumber will be my new slogan this time around! I go in for my scan in two days and am feeling positive.

We need some positive things to happen for us bloggers! Pom is the only one with luck around here! Congrats again by the way!

Today I will enjoy being lazy on the couch and watching Sunday football! Go Chiefs!

Home

Welp I made it back safely from my trip to Minnesota. We were busy girls and had a lot of fun together, catching up and what not.

We got to go to an apple orchard they had there and have fresh apple cider, apple donuts and slices of apples with hot Carmel all of the the top... YUMMY!

My friend Lindsey also had the pleasure of being around me when I took my clomid this time around. I felt different this time than last. I didn't cry like a baby or feel sensitive. I did have bad hot flashes and feel sleepy! Ang said she thought I was a little on edge but couldn't tell for sure.

Being away from home, Angie, and kitties always make me realize how happy I am, and how lucky I am to have what I have! It was such a good visit but I'm happy to be home!

The pic below is of my BEAUTIFUL backyard! Our lemons and limes are growing like crazy!

On the TTC end... we have a ultrasound on Tuesday to see if my follicles are growing. I pray there is more than one this time! Insemination is tentatively for Thursday!

As I thought

Guess who showed up right as I was taking my offical TWW preggo test... If you gussed AF then you are right.

We are bummed... I didn't cry and feel like the 2nd BFN wasn't as bad as the first BFN.

I can't imagine you girls who have gotten one BFN after another for years. This shit is hard.

Well on the bright side I'm going to Minnesota this weekend to visit my BFF Lindsey! I'm def going to have a few beers and relax!

Called my MD and the plan is to not start injectable yet but to increase Clomid to 100mg/day.... ( Even though my body didn't respond AT ALL to the 50, I hope it was just that it was too low of a dose for me and not that my body isn't responsive to it)

Thank you guys for all you sweet comments and wishes! You all rock

Wait wait wait

Well I have been a good girl and haven't tested again. It's been so hard and is constantly on my mind.

I am suppose to start my period today/tomorrow. Not quite sure b/c my this last time was 29 days as opposed to my normal cycle which is 28 days.

I'm having major cramps and feel like af will be here any second. I'm running to the bathroom every couple hours b/c I feel like af arrived but nope, just thin clear cm. (and lots of it).

Still haven't had any kind of spotting or any other real symptoms. My bbs are bigger but not sore and I once again am thinking its secondary to the progesterone.

I decided if I don't get my period tomorrow I will do a test... or should I just wait until Thursday which would be the official end of my TWW?!?!

I'm happy I work the next three days b/c it will help keep my mind off things.

Broke down...

I know I shouldn't of, and told myself I wouldn't BUT I tested this morning. 10dpo and got a BFN.

I don't feel like it's over yet but am a little disapointed. I'm not feeling anything different or abnormal. I'm suppose to start my period on Tuesday, so I guess we will see.

Thursday with be the offical end to the TWW. I'm feeling like this cylce is already done for