Feedback...

So I need your alls feed back on a subject! As the IUI date gets closer the more stressed out/nervous I get. I have read a lot of blogs that talk about accupuncture/massage to help throughout the whole process. What are your thoughts?? I of course wouldn't turn down a massage, but do they really help?!

Let me know your experiences and stories!

Waiting...

I know the break was probably a good thing for both of us, but now the wait on everything is killing me! I have never wanted to start my period this bad! Haha.

It should be coming along in two weeks...which seems forever.

My good friend Lindsey came in town and we had a good time! It helped to keep my mind off of baby stuff. However we went to the mall and I swear everyone was prego, had a new baby, or had a child. AND I swear the number of maternity stores and baby stores has multipled since I was there last... or it's just me obsessing.

Ang's Auntie is coming for a visit this next week for 10 days! It is always nice to have visitors, it makes things feel more like home. ( Ang and I just moved to Arizona last July after living in Kansas our whole lives)

Think that's about it on the home front.. sorry I'm so boring!!

Just thinkin

My wife is so cute... I was sleeping and woke up to her putting her hand on my chest and moving it to different parts of my chest .... When I woke up I asked her what she was doing and she said making sure I was still breathing..aw .. so cute! haha

Love you Baby!

Will it ever stop

....my period that is. Holy cow! This "withdraw" period is so much worse than any period I have had. It has been soo heavy now for 4 days... heavy heavy... clots..bad cramps, ibprofen every 4 hours... I'm thankful I guess its here because that means next period we get to try to baby, but man. I hope it is over soon!

Trying to be optimistic

So this past Friday we had a "follow up" with our MD. It was tough seeing everyone and hearing every one's apologies. It is hard to know what to say to someone in this situation, but we could tell everyone had been rooting for us.

I felt a lot more on the positive side after we talked to him though. Mostly b/c we now have another plan in place. (I'm more calm and feel better when I have details laid out in front of me and can plan more)

The MD said I should be having a withdraw period within the next two weeks (It will be a week since no hormones on Wed, and still no spotting or anything)
Then my cycle day one of next month we can plan for an IUI ! He wants me to take a low dose of clomid as well and explained risks of multiples, but to be quite honest, I think we were both prepared/secretly wanted twins, so the risk of multiples wasn't an issue and if the clomid will increase the chances overall of getting us prego, I'm all for it.

So that's the latest and greatest... I guess I will try to enjoy this month off from everything. I have a good friend from college coming to visit me next Wednesday so I'm very much looking forward to that, and to have a ice cold beer!!

Crushed

Ya, you could probably guess by the title... Beta was negative...not even a low number.. no number. I've been crying all day. I feel so empty. So sad.

We don't have enough money to do invitro again... which makes me even more sad b.c I wanted to have Ang's babies.

The next step is wait for my period, and start preparing for artifical insemination on me, with my eggs.

I can't believe this is happening, I felt so good about it. I'm 100% crushed

I'm lucky I have Ang though, we are sad but we have eachother

Freak out

Well tomorrow is the BIG day... and I'm FREAKING THE F*CK out!! I can't stop thinking about it and it's consuming my mind. I'm nervous, excited, scared...

Everyone keep your fingers crossed for me! I will post as soon as I find out anything

Here they are

Here is a picture of our beautiful embies!! I hope they are deciding they want to stay for the long run in my warm comfy uterus!

The top one made it to blast and the bottom is right behind!

Signs?!

Well today will make it 6 days since our transfer this past Monday. Here's how I'm feeling

Yesterday I felt like my bbs were a little sore but couldn't really tell.... this morning...holy sore! I know progesterone can cause this but I have been on that now since the date of the retrieval with no sore bbs... and now they are all the sudden

I have had two BAD cause of acid reflux/indigestion....both in the A.M. .... when I haven't had anything to eat that I think would cause it... and plus... I never get acid reflux

I have had a constant headache the past three days... Tylenol is the only thing the MD said I could take and it doesn't seem to do the trick

I haven't had any nausea but yesterday nothing sounded good to eat at all. I felt hungry but nothing tasted good and I wasn't in the mood for anything

I know I shouldn't have but couldn't help myself and took a HPT Friday morning... of course negative. I just some how thought it could be positive and then was disappointed the rest of the day.

I feel like I want to take another one...but should I just wait until Wednesday when our Beta is?!?! It's sooo hard... !